I
feel like I owe my followers an apology for my abrupt three month hiatus from
writing.
Over
this time I developed a severe case of writers block along with taking care of
more pressing issues. Those matters include taking care of myself specifically improving
my health and contemplating a plan that puts me back on the path towards my
goals.
First
my plan.
I
have discussed this plan with a close group of people that include my mother
and her husband, my sister, and my aunt and her wife. That is all I can say at
this time, but it has involved me improving my health.
When
I arrived in Colorado in December 2013, I weighed 215 pounds. Over the last
year-and-a-half I have dropped 30 pounds. It was around this time last year
that I started running and I have been logging my times and distances. I go for somewhere between 3.5 to 5 miles
in a Denver suburb and I do this between 3 to 5 times a week. Recently I have
been going towards the higher end of 5 miles and running more frequently per week which sometimes
included me violating my "No Sunday Running" rule.
It
was more of a guideline anyway.
I
can run a mile non-stop somewhere between 8:30 to 9 minutes with my best time
coming on a local high school track at 8 minutes even. For a 1.5-mile run, I
can do it in the 13-14:30 range. Again my best time for a 1.5 mile run came on
the same track where I completed that distance at 12:22.
All
these runs are in the high altitude of Colorado. I am curious about what my runs
would be if I was at a lower elevation.
Which
brings me to Texas.
I
moved from Texas to Colorado because to bluntly put it: I screwed up.
I
made some poor decisions concerning my college education ranging from taking
classes I was woefully unprepared to take, to the stubbornness of not
recognizing that I was in over my head, and neglecting my academics.
I
originally started out as a math major with a minor in political science under
the advice of a family member. I then decided to double major because as most
of you have probably figured out I developed an interest in politics. My goal
was to stand out from my fellow college students so that when I did eventually
graduate I would have more of a leg up than my contemporaries.
Unfortunately
I got bogged down with the math. I was noticing that it was taking me much
longer to complete my math homework than I expected. I also did not feel like I
was retaining the knowledge during class and with the homework assignments
leading to me feeling anxious during exams.
I
also felt like my professors were unwilling to help me when I was struggling
with both the math and political science. It was a frustrating cycle.
There
were times I wanted to walk into one of my professor's office and tell them
sternly, "I have other classes. Your
class is not the most important one."
Thank
God I never did that because it probably would have caused me more grief than I
needed. Also, they would not have cared one bit.
It
was not until the Fall Semester of 2013 I finally had enough of math.
In
the previous semester - a summer semester, I retook two classes: Differential
Equations I and Calculus II. I passed Differential Equations I but barely.
Because I had knowledge of the course, I figured that would assist me and help
me get a better grade. Instead I got the same grade as I did before: a D.
Same
with Calculus II. I had gotten a B before and I was going to retake it to get
an A. Instead I flunked that course. Even though I had a terrible professor, I
bet against the house and lost.
Still
I was going to do my best to push forward and do what I could for the next
semester.
Unfortunately
the struggle continued into the fall.
It
was the lead up to a test in Real Analysis which is proof writing- again, a class
I was woefully under-prepared for. I had taken it several times before, having
dropped it once and failing it on other occasions. I was doing my best to hold
my own, but it was still a cycle of frustration. I tried to seek out tutoring but
because of the advanced class level there was no one available to assist me.
I
had enough. I finally recognized that I reached my limit - pardon
the pun. I excelled at math in elementary, middle, and high schools. Math saved
me in A and Nuclear Power Schools in the Navy. I gone as far as I could go in
math, and it was time to say enough.
I
dropped that class and took a W. However it was the last drop I was afforded
and I could not use it on the other math class I was struggling in: Numerical
Analysis. I did not know what was going on in that class thus falling into the
category of classes I had no business in taking in the first place.
I
changed my major to political science with a minor in mathematics.
I
was doing well in American Foreign Policy and Music In Politics. I had a third
political science class and it was a political philosophy class which I was
having trouble due to the reading. I could not make sense of the reading and
again I was feeling overwhelmed.
I
also take responsibility for the times I was neglectful in my academics. Yes, I
did skip classes and not do required assignments. It certainly did contribute
to the troubles I was having. However, I did not make things easier by perusing
an overloaded course load in trying to major in two subjects when it was
probably easier to major in one and minor in another.
If
I had dialed down the courses and realized earlier that trying to double major
would have been detrimental to both my physical and mental well beings, my
college experience might have been more positive.
After
the Fall Semester of 2013, I was placed on academic probation due to a low overall
GPA. I was suspended from attending classes at North Texas for one semester. My
suspension was lifted over a year ago, but I was not ready to return due to one
other situation.
My
finances
Not
to go into too many details, but they are a wreck in part due to poor planning.
I
did not anticipate college would take me this long to complete. I thought I
would be done with school by the end of 2012, but again, due to the stipulated
academic situation I was finishing up five years in school which led to my
finances drying up.
I
recognized I was in dire straits the day the Fall 2013 semester ended. I loaded
up my car with the important items and my cat Tristan. We left Texas on 24
December 2013, Christmas Eve, and have not been back since.
We
have been living with family members for almost 18 months now who have been
very supportive as I slowly and gradually get back on my feet.
I
am 30 hours short of completing my degree. Once I return to Texas, that will be
my primary focus. The timetable for returning to Texas to complete this task is
as of right now undetermined, but that day will come.
Which
brings me to this point about my writing.
I
took a break from writing because it was needed.
Yes,
there have been lots of things going on.
Former
Secretary of State Hillary Clinton and Senator Bernie Sanders announced their
presidential run for the Democratic nomination.
Senators
Ted Cruz, Rand Paul, Marco Rubio, former Florida
Governor Jeb
Bush, and many
other Republicans announcing their run for their party's nomination.
Baltimore, Cleveland, and Chicago and a more
heightened attention towards incidents concerning police brutality.
ISIS,
IS, ISIL, or whatever that group that is calling themselves these days is taking over
portions of Iraq and Syria.
Patriots
quarterback Tom Brady received a four game suspension for his involvement in the team's
football deflation scandal as well as the Patriots losing two draft picks.
The
national
backlash over Indiana passing their state's Religious Freedom Restoration Act that attacked
the LGBT community.
The
Supreme Court heard three cases that could be announced later this month: same-sex
marriage,
the
constitutionality of using certain drugs in lethal injection, and the second case
concerning ObamaCare in three years.
In
May an Amtrak passenger train carrying
238 passengers derailed in a Philadelphia neighborhood killing 5. The next
day a
House committee led by Republicans voted to cut Amtrak funding. The investigation
into the accident is still ongoing.
How
the Colorado
Legislature handled the first session of the 70th General Assembly with Democrats in
charge of the House
while Republicans were in charge of the Senate.
Former
House Speaker Dennis Hastert was indicted for violating
banking laws to pay $3.5 million to an unnamed person to cover up so-called
past misconduct that is slowly being revealed as sexual assault. Hastert
appeared before a federal judge in Illinois and pleaded not guilty to the
charges.
In
a televised
interview
with Diane Sawyer, former Olympic athlete Bruce Jenner revealed she is
transgender and transitioning from male to female. Recently Jenner took to
Twitter
to reveal Vanity Fair's June cover and new name:
Caitlyn.
And
of course other stories that did not catch my eye but should receive heightened
attention.
After
this hiatus, I am considering this a restart.
It
is gradual so bear with me.
I
enjoy writing and sharing my thoughts on what is going on in my spheres of
interests. I also enjoy the process whether it is through writing or also incorporating
a video as I have with this post.
When
I started this experiment five years ago, that is what this was: an experiment.
I sometimes look at what I wrote and sometimes look at what I didn't get to post
in my folder. Maybe someday I will get back to the stuff I didn't post, clean
it up, and post it. Or make it part of a lost series.
Despite
the many obstacles and challenges I have endured recently, I will continue
writing as long as I see it
I am
amazed at what I have created. It is a mess of sorts because I am not a writer.
Surprised
by that admission? Someone who writes admits that he is not a writer. I am
surprised by that as well.
So
let's continue this experiment in whatever capacity this may become.
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